As some of you may be aware from my recent post on facebook, I had my hair shaved earlier this month. With the temperature rising in each passing day, hot season gradually made this a more desirable and realistic option for me. Some days, the temperature reaches more than 120° and I find myself sweating from just a walk around the block. Even staying indoors does not provide relief and can even make the heat more smoldering.
A few days after the shave

This decision was not completely hot season generated though. I always wanted to, or rather been curious about what having a bald/shaven head would be like. I do not know if I would ever have the guts to do it in the States, but this situation seemed to provide that extra bit of motivation. Now, I can officially check it off my bucket list.

With the temperature aside, I also felt more comfortable shaving my hair because here because it is a pretty common style for other girls. Just like school fees and supplies, a shaven head is required for girls and boys attending public institutions. With that being the case, finding a barber was a simple search. 

In only 15 minutes of my day and 200 Fcfa (roughly 50 cents) out of my pocket, the shave was done. I even added an additional 50 Fcfa tip for the barber, which I think shocked him just as much as the shave shocked me.

I glanced in the mirror just briefly before leaving the shop, expecting the whole community to notice and comment on the change immediately. Instead, I exited and walked down the street just as I had come—without much notice. Even when I passed one of the cafeterias I frequent and talked with the owner for a few minutes, he did not say a word about my hair (or lack thereof).

When I left the cafeteria and continued through the market, I encountered the same response—nothing. This seemed so ironic to me, because normally in Togolese culture it is okay to point out obvious, though less purposeful changes like, “you’ve got a pimple” “your clothes are dirty” or the no-longer applicable: “your hair needs to be braided.”

In some ways, I actually preferred the silence and quickly began to settle into this unexpected reaction. On my way to start doing some work for the day, I was greeted with yet another surprise. For the first time, I got to experience the wind on my head, a moment I will argue is much more satisfying that the wind in your hair.

Before I could enjoy this moment too long though, someone noticed the change and brought it to my attention. Just across from the radio station where I was heading, a lady selling popcorn and other snacks mentioned that I cut my hair and asked, “Is that what you want?” 

To be honest, I hadn’t yet figured that out for myself, but I responded with a quick, “Yes. It’s finished” in local language, and continued on my path.

At the radio station, I was greeted by the director who was sitting outside doing some paperwork. When he saw me coming, he just stopped and stared until I was close enough to conclusively confirm my identity. He also commented my hair, but asked a slightly different question, “Why did you do that?” Using French, I was able to explain the only good reason I had, “It’s too hot.”

On the other side of the short wall separating the radio station from a weavers group stood my laundry lady. She works washing clothes all over town and was scrubbing away when she stopped to look up at my head in horror. She only speaks local language, but fortunately (or not?) the radio station director I was standing next to delivered a translation for the next few things she said.

“You cut your hair… It is not good. It is not pretty. You are like a man… It was nice before. Why did you cut it?” she demanded.

Before I realized she could not understand, I responded back in French with, “It’s too hot” and then added the only applicable thing I knew to say in Kotokoli, “The sun.”

Again, she explained that my hair “is not good” along with several other things in local language I could not understand and was not given translations to this time. I only stayed at the radio station a few minutes longer before I went around the wall to take care of the second visit on my agenda, to see the weavers.

There, I was standing in front of the laundry lady face to face, and again she mentioned, “It is not good.” This time she surprised me using English rather than Kotokoli or French. As I started to continue toward the weavers, she added a few more thoughts, now in Kotokoli, “You must put [on] jewelry. You look like men,” one of the weavers translated for me.

With the weavers, I received mixed reactions. However, in contrast to my initial reactions of nothingness, everyone noticed the change and made comments. Like my laundry lady, the weavers were not bashful. The director of the group skipped through the normal greetings to instead say, “It is not good for me. Your hair.”

Rather than responding myself, I asked another weaver what he thought. “It is good for me.” He rebutdtaled. This marked the first positive review I received. Quickly enough, my conversation with the weavers switched back to work, and in no time it seemed like my hair change was unnoticeable again.

On my way home, I was politely greeted by my neighbors but again nothing was mentioned about my hair. It was not until I went back out to the market late in the afternoon that things changed. Immediately upon stepping out of my door, my neighbors asked, “You did your hair? Why?”

Then, at the market, all of the women that seemed not to notice earlier certainly did now. Repeatedly they said, “You did/you cut your hair” depending on the translation I received. Each time, “Why?” served as the follow-up question. Some women were surprised and gasped when they saw me, adamantly saying “It’s not good.” Others raised their firsts and said, “It’s good! Good work.” Either way, they were all noticing.

Maybe more exciting than the market was another eventful part of my day. Outside my house I was greeted by a group of kids (not unusual), but rather than just say hello from afar, as I stepped toward my door, they ran to me. Several of them just wanted to touch me, so they grabbed my skin or waggled my hand too vigorously to be considered a hand shake. 

Then, they stopped and just stood there. They looked up at me with the biggest smiles until one tried to capitalize on the moment by throwing out the palm of her hand and saying, “Give me money” in local language.

This was usual and I retorted with my default reverse psychology line, “Give me money” and put on my palm as well. After a brief hesitation, one of the wiser kids in the group grabbed a small rock from the ground and laid it in my palm. In response, I passed the rock on to the first kid who asked for money, and this seemed to quench the kids like an energy drink. The group started laughing wildly and took turns collecting rocks to put in my hand, or to place in the palms of the others. The more I continued along with the game, the more excited the kids became.

After a few minutes, I was convinced the game might never end until one of my English club kids (and helpful neighbor) intervened. He shooed the kids a way and urged me to, “go back in your house so you can work. They will just bother you.” He explained.

While that game had the potential to last longer than I would care to play, I was still saddened by the abrupt ending of it. The kids did not let me down though. As I stepped inside my gate, the group followed in too with the reasoning, “we want to see your garden.” I did not mind that, so I let them in. The kids then started wandering around all over the yard, to the back of my house, and one girl even popped a squat to pee.

Again, the English club student helped me out by rounding up all the kids and again shooed them away. Once we got them out mostly the door, an old man walked in too. Thinking he was just curious about the parade of children exiting my door, or maybe that he wanted to see the garden too, I let him come in.  He only spoke local language, but through the translations of my English club student, I learned neither of those reasons were of interest to him. Instead, he wanted to collect leaves. The English club student explained that he was a traditional medicine healer and wanted to collect some of the weeds growing in my garden to use for his craft.

Definitely willing to help him (and clean up my yard a bit), I let him go for it, and joined him in digging up the weeds he wanted. Before leaving, he also tried to give me natural medicine for malaria (not needed as long as I take my prophylaxis) and something for a sick stomach (not such a bad idea for any PCV).

From shaving my head without notice… to some notice, then to neighborhood notice (of that and of other things). Just one of those interesting days to be alive and in Togo. It also demonstrates the juxtaposition I often encounter here. As volunteers, it seems like people do not care one minute, then later on we might find a swarm of people waiting for us at home who do.
During the two years of service for Peace Corps Volunteers, there are five critical trainings. The first is before our official service even begins, called Pre-Service Training (PST). The time frame varies a bit from country to country, but in Togo it lasts nine weeks. Once we finish PST and get past our Swear-In Ceremony we become official Volunteers and get sent to our official posts. We move up from PCT’s (Peace Corps Trainees) to PCV’s (Peace Corps Volunteers).

Then, after three months of getting to know our new homes (“posts or sites” in Peace Corps lingo), we have a week-long In Service Training (IST). The focus of IST is to learn about the types of work opportunities for our Volunteer focus or sector. As a Small Enterprise Development (SED) Volunteer, for me that means learning how to teach business skills. IST focuses more on the practice/execution of our work than the things we learned at PST, because volunteers are now ready to benefit from the information from knowing their sites.

Another three months down the line leads to Project Design Management (PDM). This also coincides with our six month mark at post. At PDM, the focus varies, but ours was geared toward learning about new sectors. This four day training was divided into behavior change during the first two days and permanent gardens on day three and part of day four. We also had the opportunity to attend a few rotating sessions so I learned about small scale animal raising and family planning at the end of the fourth day.

Near the one year mark in my service I will also have to attend a Mid-Service Training (MST). While I have not yet been, from what I gather the idea is to see what the other members of your training group have been up to at their sites. It also provides a cross-collaborative environment, because all Volunteer sectors come. Until this point, all of our training dates were also combined with the Volunteers we got on the plane with. 

This other sector happens to be Community Health and AIDS Prevention (CHAP), but MST includes the other sectors represented in Togo. There are also Volunteers for Girls Education and Empowerment (GEE) and Environmental Action and Food Security (EAFS) who start their service just four months after we do. MST is also a good jumping off point for Volunteers to think about and plan how they want to maximize their second (and last) year of service.

Finally, the last ‘training’ is actually a Close/Continuation of Service conference. Again, I have not yet been to this, but I gather that the goal is to prepare volunteers to life after the Peace Corps. This includes not just life in America, but how to prepare leaving Togo and wrapping up work.

Why have I explained all of these different trainings? Well, several reasons. First, I needed to clarify all of acronyms that have filled my blog, and provide some background on these enigmatic “Peace Corps trainings” I have mentioned. Secondly, well.. during the last PC training I attended (PDM), I learned that my sector (SED) will be cut from Peace Corps Togo.

While this will definitely have an impact on the rest of my service, it hardly effects me directly. That is to say, the current SED Volunteers like me will not be removed from Togo, but instead we are the last. There will not be more SED Volunteers entering Togo in June as normal, nor will my training group be receiving replacement SED Volunteers in June 2013. 

Overall, this will also lower the likelihood that our posts will be replaced. The other three sectors in Togo will continue to receive the same number of volunteers (no increases), so if existing Volunteers from those sectors are scheduled to be replaced, there will simply not be enough volunteers to fill the current SED posts.

We were not given detailed reasons for the cut, but broadly speaking the entire Peace Corps budget has been cut by more than $25 million. Many sectors are being cut in all Peace Corps countries, and SED is one that was cut all over West Africa and other parts of the world. 

Here in Togo, the SED program has not been reporting its goal numbers, which probably also had a big impact on the cut. On paper, our main goals are 1) work with individuals/entrepreneurs, 2) work with youth 3) work with microfinance organizations and 4) work with people infected with HIV/AIDS. In reality, most SED Volunteers I talked with almost exclusively focus on the first.

For me, this whole cut has re-instilled the idea of sustainability to my service goals. Creating projects and doing work that can continue once I am gone has always been my goal, but now that is on the forefront more than ever. 

Most Volunteers think sustainability but still plan for having a replacement and giving them things to carry on with. I hope to leverage this cut in my community by generating more motivation from people. Who knows, I could be their last shot to help them achieve their dream goals.

Though I phrased this more as a cut, it was presented to us as a phasing out. It will be up to current SED PCV’s to do the phasing out but I think that has been the goal all along.